Last offical post!

This is the last blog we have to write woo! Haha, i have actually enjoyed these weekly blog entries.  Although, i have to admit once the assignment is over the blog will pretty much consist of all pictures with a few witty comments here and there. And i haven't the slightest the clue of what to write for our last entry.  Well all that's on my mind right now is A. once i finish typing this and commenting on a few peoples entries i can go to bed and i am allowing myself to not work on my research paper tonight, what a luxury, ha! B. all i can think about when im not at work, in class, or at a meeting, is my research paper. C. im am so happy for sunday so we can turn our papers in and i dont have to think about it anymore. I can not wait for that two week break between the end of the spring semester and the beginning of the first summer session! God, i am too tired to write anything.  I havent been home for more then an hour a day besides when im sleeping over the past two weeks. My routine is the same every day wake up(earlier than my liking) off to work then either to the library to work on the research paper or to class and then to a meeting(which gives me some sanity) and then home to work on the research paper and then to bed. Sorry Mr. Brophy! i had to complain about it! it is so much work! But it is preparing me for what is to come seeing that i'm only taking two classes and my molehill of work seems like a mountain. Ill be in for a real treat once i bump up my course load :) I enjoyed the blogs so much, even though i might be the only one haha have a great summer alll! 

80 days

I havent had a drink in 80 days(with the exception of the haunting dreams i have where i have unusual adventures drinking and wake up in a cold sweat, feeling ashamed for having to go the a meeting and fess up, only to gratefully realize that i am still in bed and that i did not drink).  It has been a whopping 60 days without smoking any weed(especially exciting because yesterday was 420, which besides being hitler's birthday, is a huge holiday for smoking weed, as i am sure most of you know) and 16 days without a cigarette. Ha and does it make any sense that i have much less free time now than i did back then. It makes no sense to me! I have no time for anything.  But it is better than having too much time to kill, i guess haha, no time for bordem! One awesome thing i have gotten from this research paper, is a quote from one of the articles that really stuck with me.  It mentioned "Socrates' proverbial idea --'that no one does wrong knowingly' which implies that all wrong doings must be caused by ignorance or mental illness" I know everytime i have done things wrong(which there has been many haha) i dont mean for them to hurt anyone and i sure as hell am not doing them on purpose to be wrong.  It may seem right in my head or my judgment is clouded or my pride gets in the way, whatever the case i agree with this quote and i really like to think about how such intelligent people existed way before technology ever existed.  You know i always think of people way back when being so primitive and so foolish compared to what we know now, but this is obviously no where near true. Primitive maybe, but there is wisdom and peace that comes with such simplicity.  So a nice word for me to chew on for the week, month, and however long i want...simplify. easier said than done!

Day 11

I feel like i have nothing to write about, maybe because it is seven thirty in the moring.  I remembered last night as i was lying in bed i forgot to do my blog! So i set my alarm for seven and have been hitting snooze up until now. Oops. I really like this time of year because you know spring is coming! It is still way too cold for my liking but the glimmer of hope of the warm weather to soon arive is all i need! I always feel like the springtime however is very busy.  I started using a day planner because i really do not know if i would be able to organize half of the things i have to do in my head.  I can never say no to doing more stuff either! I have a lot of homework especially this week, another orientation at MainLine, and i just agreed to take seventy five necklaces home for anthro to make this weekend! AH, i wish there was more time in the day.  Today is day 11 without a cigarrette, if i make it through.  It is so much easier pretty much everyday since day four.  Hahaha and its easy to not smoke knowing that if i do choose to light up i will eventually have to go through those first four days again. I havent been outside yet but it looks nice.  The trees are kind of sparkling as they move, meaning its wet out?  The sky is a light orange-yellow and makes all of the tree trunks look defined infront of it.  The trees looks mangaled but in a beautiful way. and my tea is almost cool enough to drink so it looks like i can start my day now.

Day 3

Today is day three without a cigarette.  My sponsor  has been lying to me.  I was told on day one that it would be the hardest and if i could just get through the first day it will only get better. FALSE. At the end of day two he apologized to me, and said that he had to tell me day one was the worst so i wouldn't give up, but day two really is the hardest day. FALSE AGAIN? yes indeed.  Now it is day three and surprise, surprise its far worse. On day two, i was driving to work and my car read 5000 rpm...10 mph and dropping.. Now i just bought this car two months ago and it only has 50,000 miles on it and in the past two months i have had the car for a whopping 3 weeks. First comes the engine light.. a month and a lot of bullshit later i have a brand new engine...i get to drive my car for another whopping 5 days and what sounds like the transmission is now fucked up too. Wow, it feels good to vent.  On the bright side today is almost over and tomorrow is a new day.  Hopefully the nicotine withdraw(which for a non smoker or someone who has never tried to quit before feels like i would imagine heroin withdraw) will be easier tomorrow.  If it is not easier however then i always knew nobody liked i quitter, and i can go right back to where i was before.  Another good thing, my company is having a trunk show this weekend, which i am helping with and i always enjoy the trunk shows! Sorry for complaining its really all i have on my mind right now. come check out the trunk show its really cool jewelry and right in chester springs! Lenoradame.com

time to find a good book

playdate

i feel like a kid again

welcome spring

fairy tails

trying on my new clothes..

nature walk

skeleton brides..